BREATHE N BOUNCE

The Kids Went Back to School and I Finally Cried in Peace: A Parent's Guide to the September Letdown The first morning went surprisingly well. Nobody could find a shoe, obviously. Someone forgot a water bottle. Someone else suddenly remembered a form that needed to be signed right now , as if the school district had personally been waiting for our family to get its act together. But eventually, somehow, everyone got out the door. Then the house went quiet. Not peaceful quiet. Not immediately, anyway. More like the strange, ringing quiet after a concert when your ears are still trying to figure out what happened. I stood in the kitchen with a cold cup of coffee, a backpack-shaped dent in the couch cushion, and absolutely no idea what to do with myself. So I cried. Not a graceful, cinematic tear rolling down my cheek while I stared meaningfully out the window. No. I cried the way a person cries when they have been holding everything together for months and their nervous syst...

I probably shouldn't have went forward with this but this is exact what my depression sounds like, and how difficult it is for me to continue on with everything.  I think its important to demonstrate since people out there think its not real and its an act.  Frankly,  I don't even know if I am going to continue doing this anymore.  No one listens.  No one gives a shit.  Why should I?  I guess stay tuned. MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE I JUST WANT YOU - Ozzy Osbourne LOW - Testament A CRY FROM THE CRYPT- Candlemass ST PATRICKS - Savatage

Some people say they've experienced loneliness here and there, but what's it like to experience loneliness all the time? See, maybe you don't experience loneliness like someone like me does. Loneliness for me is an emptiness that really cannot be filled, because I feel alone all the time. I even feel alone when I am with people. I feel alone when I'm by myself. It's just a feeling that I have, because there's a hole inside of me of abandonment. I feel that so many people have abandoned me in my life because I'm different. Because I don't process well. Because I feel too deeply and I can be outspoken. I can be excitable. I could be weird. And people might say to my face that they like these qualities, but I feel that if I'm not around, they're happier for it. I feel that this loneliness has brought out a rage inside of me towards people, because I just want to be seen and I want to be held and I want to be loved. Then I start saying to mysel...

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