I really take a hard look at myself to see why I have had people abandon me. What is my role in all of this? What have I been doing? When do I let my emotions take over? I struggled to find peace because I have always been super angry and just don't know how to crack the nut. So today's episode is trying to break things down and move on a better path. MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE NOOKIE - Limp Bizkit MIRROR MIRROR - Candlemass I AM HATED - Slipknot BLINDED BY THE LIGHT - Mannfred Mann Earth Band DROWNING - Excision GENERATE - Eric Prydz ANOTHER ME - Seven Lions, Excision, Wooli, Dylan Matthew
Yesterday there was a lot of stuff happening, a lot of exciting stuff, so I didn't get a chance to write the Chronicle. For that reason I will go ahead and do it now. It's a day late, but that's not a big deal, as long as I get it done, that's what matters. The last few weeks have been very trying for me regarding making some changes in my life, but yesterday I saw some fruit from the work that I've put in with my physical fitness. Back in March my weight skyrocketed to 246 pounds. My body fat was 35. It was really embarrassing for me, and to think about the fact that back in 2022 I got my weight down very low. I weighed 221 pounds. To jump up 25 pounds with my body fat numbers going up that high made me really depressed and upset. I felt like I let myself go. I was doing a lot of yoga, but the yoga was not helping me with my body. It was helping me with my mind. So I neglected my body at the same time. I made a commitment to myself to set a goal: 230 pounds with a ...
