EPISODE XCVIII: LONELINESS IS NOT ONLY FELT BY FOOLS

I am feeling lonely lately, so I am going to talk about it here.  I am reaching out to all the lonely souls in the world so we can all come together and talk about how we are feeling.  How can we stand up and connect? How can we let our light shine to attract others?  We explore this here today

MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE

ONE - Aimee Mann
ONE - Metallica
THE DEVIL IN I - Slipknot
YOU'RE LOST LITTLE GIRL - The Doors
I DO NOT WANT THIS - Nine Inch Nails
WASTED - Nero
DAY AFTER DAY - Savatage
TURN THIS LOVE AROUND - Armin Van Buuren feat Nervo and Laura V
I WANT OUT - Helloween

EPISODE XCVII: THE DOPE SHOW

 I mean I do have a pretty dope show, but that's not what we are talking about here.  We are actually talking about drugs.  The role they play in our life, and I talk about my experiences with them and why I went this direction, what made me stop, and hopefully people can learn from it.

MUSIC FROM THE SHOW

I DON'T LIKE THE DRUGS (BUT THE DRUGS LIKE ME) - Marylin Manson
I WANT TO GET HIGH - Cypress Hill
WHY DON'T WE GET DRUNK AND SCREW - Jimmy Buffet
LSD IS THE BOMB - Radioactive Goldfish
NOT TO TOUCH THE EARTH - The Doors
STRANGE DAYS - Prong ft Ray Manzarek
HEROIN - Velvet Underground
EVERYTHING DIES - Type O Negative

ANOTHER DAY

I thank you God for another day, another opportunity.  Another chance.  I am so grateful

 

Another day to grow, another day to learn

Where we can learn how to live with purpose and not out of concern

Another day to laugh, another day to cry

We all have different feelings, it’s the same for you and I

Another day to talk, another day to sit

The stillness of solitude, we can quiet our mind a bit

Another day to walk, another day to move

We get another chance to breathe, just so we can improve

Another day to ponder, another day to act

We think of great memories, and maybe we’ll run them back

Another day to live, another day has come

Feeling joy and happiness in heart, hoping not to feel numb

Another day for passion, another day for love

There may be sadness and sorrow today, but we learn to rise above

 

We get another 24, so let go out and do our best

This is the real thing, this is not a test

So take this day and make the best, find a way to win

Let’s all celebrate the gift, and let the love in

 

TWO POEMS I WROTE

 I wrote some poetry last year and I wanted to share two of the poems I wrote.  I was feeling lonely and my borderline symptoms were really bad. So I wrote these to try to make sense of how I was feeling and putting it into words.  I am going to try to go back to writing since I am finding things from the early days of Michael that are really helping me lead to happiness. (read more)

EPISODE XCVI: GO AHEAD JUMP

Sometimes when we are faced with a difficult decision and risk is involved, we have to make that choice to get uncomfortable and possibly grow.  We can't let our mind get in the way. I speak about this and how my own personal experiences have brought me to create this episode.

MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE 

 

FACE THE DAY - Great White
WORLD COMING DOWN - Type O Negative
FALLS - Odesza
NOWHERE TO HIDE - Nero
WAKE ME UP - Avicii
JUMP - Me N U
I REMEMBER - Deadmau5 w/ Kaskade
THE INFINITY - Five Pointe 0

EPISODE XCV: THE UNBEARABLE GUILT OF REACTING TO JOY AND PAIN

Is it important for us to react to everything?  Most likely it isn't, but sometimes responses are warranted.  I speak about my own struggle about this piece and how I was super ultra reactive to anything people said or did to me and it created this beast inside of me.  I talk about how I am practicing to respond and not react to news no matter if its good or bad.

MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE

CLINT EASTWOOD - Gorillaz
MYSTERY - Dio
CHANGE (IN THE HOUSE OF FLIES) - Deftones
JOY AND PAIN - DJ Ez Rock and Rob Base
GUILT - Nero
WHAT I'VE DONE - Linkin Park
TAKE THE LONG WAY HOME - Supertramp

EPISODE XCIV: SADNESS AND SUICIDE

 

Mental health is one of the biggest issues out there today.  Poor mental health treatments and programs have been responsible for making symptoms worse for many patients.  Sometimes life gets to be too much and some see only one way out.  I have contemplated and attempted to take that way out and I talk about some of my stories and my challenges, but I talk about the journey I have taken to understand what life truly is and what it can be 

MUSIC FROM THS EPISODE

PAPERCUT - Linkin Park
THE REAL ME - WASP
FADE TO BLACK - Metallica
TEENAGE SUICIDE - Degarmo & Key
SINS OF OMISSION - Testament