EPISODE XCI: THE WALLS RISE AND CRUMBLE

I talk about how we walk around with our defenses up because we may not want people to see our true selves because we are afraid we will not be accepted.  Then again, if we are to live authentically, we might just be ourselves with no cares and no regrets.  We just work to build ourselves up physically and mentally to help us find the person we are and also with the courage to just be who we are at the present moment, rather than worry about what happened before.

 

MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE

EMPTY SPACES/WHAT SHALL WE DO NOW - Pink Floyd
ALL THE LOVE IN THE WORLD - Nine Inch Nails
PICK ME - Girl in Red
LATCH - Disclosure w/ Sam Smith
CAN'T BE UNSAID - Buried in Verona
READY TO BLOW - KMFDM
LET IT ALL GO - Birdy/Rhodes
CRUMBLING DOWN - John Mellencamp

THIRTY TIMES ONE WIN

I practice yoga at Lifetime. It's a great environment with wonderful teachers and wonderful people. I received my 200 hour certification there and I also spend a lot of time there doing other workouts as well. It is my happy place. It's teaches me how to live "a healthy way of life" however one the most beautiful things about the place is the challenges. So they had a 30 days of yoga challenge, and of course I said challenge accepted.  (read more)

EPISODE XC: THE LYING GAME

 A problem I have had in the past was a need to lie.  I did so because I was afraid of consequences, getting yelled at, being abandoned.  However, one thing I have learned is the lying makes it much worse.  I talk about this and bring the disappointment of how it feels to be lied to because I have also been on that side.

MUSIC FROM THJIS EPISODE

LIES LIES LIES - Thompson Twins
LITTLE LIES - Fleetwood Mac
HARD LIES - Barren Cross
LIAR - Yngwie Malmsteen
LIAR - Megadeth
TRAGEDY - The Bee Gees
WASTED TIME - Skid Row
GOODBYE STRANGER - Supertramp
HONESTLY - Stryper

EXPONENTIAL GRATITUDE

 This past weekend, Huntley Hills Airport Transportation, one of the two transportation company I own and manage was a vendor at the Huntley Chamber Community Expo. This is an event where many of the businesses in my area get together and converse with the public. Trying to get our name out there and what not. What happened made me tear up and feel feels. (read more)

EPISODE LXXXVIV: THE DEPRESSION EXPERIENCE

 

Ever feel depressed and really observed yourself while in that particular moment.  I share what my depression and mindset is when I feel down through lots of music and raw thought.  This episode has a trigger warning for suicide as I talk about that on this episode.  Please take care of yourself.  Call 988 if you need support.  You can always DM here as well.

MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE
RAINY DAYS AND MONDAYS - The Carpenters
CIRICE - Ghost
STAY AWAY - Godsmack
DOG DAY SUNRISE - Fear Factory
I'M BROKEN - Pantera
I WENT TO FAR - Aurora
FINAL EXIT - Feaf Factory
A TOUT LE MONDE - Megadeth
JANE SIEBERY - It can't Rain All the Time
RAININ - Sponge
NOTHING COMPARES 2U- Sinead O' Connor

CREATHE SOMETHING

 Tomorrow one of the most emotionally charged episodes of Breathe N Bounces ever. The episode deals with depression and touches on suicide. These two things are byproducts of mental illness and they are things that need to be discussed in honest detail. Not from a therapeutic standpoint, but from people who have gone through it. Authenticity is important for an issue like this, because if you haven't lived it, it's hard to trust those who don't know what it's like. (read more)

EPISODE LXXXVIII: MOMENTS, STEPS, BREATH

 The three things that need to be utilized for something to change.  The moment happens, take the steps to respond, breathe through the changes.  All of them have to activate before you start on a new path and journey.  It can be scary but as long as you have your breath you can do anything.   BNB underwent somewhat of a format change and I am going to keep tweaking it as I moved forward.

MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE

ROADS - Portishead
SCARY MASK - Poppy
INTO THE VOID - Nine Inch Nails
IT COMES AND IT GOES - Nero
UNFINISHED SYMPATHY - Massive Attack
MY WAY - Limp Bizkit
FIND YOUR WAY BACK - Jefferson Starship
GO YOUR OWN WAY - Fleetwood Mac