BREATHE N BOUNCE

Some people say they've experienced loneliness here and there, but what's it like to experience loneliness all the time? See, maybe you don't experience loneliness like someone like me does. Loneliness for me is an emptiness that really cannot be filled, because I feel alone all the time. I even feel alone when I am with people. I feel alone when I'm by myself. It's just a feeling that I have, because there's a hole inside of me of abandonment. I feel that so many people have abandoned me in my life because I'm different. Because I don't process well. Because I feel too deeply and I can be outspoken. I can be excitable. I could be weird. And people might say to my face that they like these qualities, but I feel that if I'm not around, they're happier for it. I feel that this loneliness has brought out a rage inside of me towards people, because I just want to be seen and I want to be held and I want to be loved. Then I start saying to mysel...

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I Tracked Every Time I Felt Like Crap for a Week , Here's What I Learned I kept telling myself I was having a “bad week.” That phrase is convenient, isn’t it? A bad week. A weird mood. A little tired. Kind of stressed. Not sleeping great. Scrolling too much. Snapping at people for breathing near me. Very scientific. But I had a suspicion that “bad week” was actually several different things piled on top of each other. Poor sleep. Too much phone time. Not enough movement. Anxiety I kept pretending was just productivity. Irritability I blamed on everybody else, because obviously the entire planet was being annoying specifically to me. So I decided to track it. Not with an expensive wellness retreat. Not with a $300 subscription that sends me inspirational notifications written by somebody named Sage. I used a notebook, a pen, and the deeply radical practice of paying attention to my own life. For seven days, I tracked my energy, anxiety, irritability, sleep, and scrolling. I...