BREATHE N BOUNCE

A big theme for me this weekend is transitions—the changing road ahead and all the shit spinning in my head. A lot of it comes from my kid graduating, which has me reflecting on my own high school experience. To be blunt: there wasn’t much of one. I wasted so much time, and it wasn’t even funny. I didn't get the support or the challenge I needed. I was bullied by students, and teachers openly told others they expected me to end up pumping gas. When I was tossed out of mainstream high school and put into a behavioral school, I didn't see much of a future. I thought I was doomed. But at the new school, I started making friends—mostly because we were all getting high—but I also found an interest in writing. I wrote a play, cast it (though rehearsals never happened), and actually did well in sports like volleyball and bowling. By senior year, I was on the yearbook staff. But I never finished. I took a job with my father instead, which was a mistake. I missed my own high school grad...

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May is always hard for me, and it has been hitting me hard.  People I love don't receive me the way I want them to because of my actions in the past.  I acknowledge it and I talk about the complicated relationship I have had with people, especially women.  It 's because of my insecure and anger and I have to deal with it so I talk about that along with other stuff that's heavy. MUSIC ON THIS EPISODE MOTHER - Danzig GOOD THINGS FALL APART - Illenium WE NEED A MOTHER - Ane Brun DISAPPOINTED - Nine Inch Nails WINGS - Armand Ven Helden I CAN BE SOMEONE - Deorro w/ Erin Macarley FAMILY - The Chainsmokers and Kygo