BREATHE N BOUNCE

I Tracked Every Time I Felt Like Crap for a Week , Here's What I Learned I kept telling myself I was having a “bad week.” That phrase is convenient, isn’t it? A bad week. A weird mood. A little tired. Kind of stressed. Not sleeping great. Scrolling too much. Snapping at people for breathing near me. Very scientific. But I had a suspicion that “bad week” was actually several different things piled on top of each other. Poor sleep. Too much phone time. Not enough movement. Anxiety I kept pretending was just productivity. Irritability I blamed on everybody else, because obviously the entire planet was being annoying specifically to me. So I decided to track it. Not with an expensive wellness retreat. Not with a $300 subscription that sends me inspirational notifications written by somebody named Sage. I used a notebook, a pen, and the deeply radical practice of paying attention to my own life. For seven days, I tracked my energy, anxiety, irritability, sleep, and scrolling. I...

 I am back teaching yoga again.  Come and see me  STILLNESS WEDNESDAYS @ 1PM RANDALL OAKS RECREATION CENTER 500 N Randall Rd West Dundee, IL FREEFORM YOGA WEDNESDAYS @ 5PM RAKOW CENTER 665 Barrington Av Carpentersville ALSO A COUPLE OF SPECIAL EVENTS COMING UP EXPERIENCE IV: YOGA DREAM 9/23 7P RAKOW CENTER DARK FLOW 10/10 1P RANDALL OAKS RECREATION CENTER SUPER SAVASANA 12/1 8PM RANDALL OAKS RECREATION CENTER You can get more information at the Dundee Township website

 This is a picture from 2016 and I look happy, but I am really not.  I talk about how I screwed so much stuff up that year and it was the beginning of a slippery slope of doom with people who knew me, loved me, and the vomit of lots of anger, sadness, and guilt I was carrying for so long.  I think we all have years like this when we were at our worst.  How can we recover?  Did I make everything better? Was I able to grow and learn from it? Can you? Can anyone?  Time heals, but we must help move that process along. MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE IT WAS A VERY GOOD YEAR - Frank Sinatra ALL THE THINGS SHE SAID - Poppy SACRIFCE - Kx5(Kaskade, Deadmau5)/Sofi Tukker WORST DAY - Illenium REPLICA - Fear Factory WILL I - Music from the Broadway Musical Rent WHEN LIFE IS GOOD AGAIN - Dolly Parton

There are moments in time where things come up for us that we don't know how to deal with. There are times when depression hits us like a ton of bricks. We don't know where it came from. We don't know how it happened. So, we find ourselves not knowing what to do, and we try to run away from it. Panic attacks happen out of nowhere, and we don't have a plan for how to deal with it. So obviously, the best thing we can do is create plans for bullshit. By creating plans, we learn not to run away from this, but to face it. Sometimes we can explore and see where it came from, and some people might say, "I don't give a shit where it came from because I just don't like what I'm experiencing, and I want it to be over with." I have always been of that mindset. However, these days I am someone who will sit with the feeling. I will let it consume me, and then I will let it pass by. There are unfortunately days where depression can take a long time for me to...