BREATHE N BOUNCE

 Sometimes we have to understand that we made some more choices in life.  For myself, I can say I hurt people.  I was angry.  I was mean.  I didn't think I would ever make changes and now I have learned I have a choice.  When it comes to the past, i have to accept and love that part of me, and forgive it.  It's so hard so let's talk about it. MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE THE GOOD THE BAD THE UGLY - Kanye West HATE MYSELF - NF IN THE END - Tommie Profitt f/Fleurie, Jung Youth DARK ARIA - XAI, Hiroyuki Sawano PUMPED UP KICKS - Foster the People WALK AWAY - Five Finger Death Punch SECOND CHANCE - Shinedown

  I look at the difference between "those old geezers" and "those young punks."  You know, statements like, "back in my day" and "your way sucks so this is what we do" and stuff like that.  After further review I come to find that maybe they aren't that much different at all. MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE YOUTH GONE WILD - Skid Row THE KIDS ARE ALRIGHT - Chloe x Halle SIGNS - Tesla LSD IS THE BOMB - Radioactive Goldfish THE KIDS ARE DYING - FINNEAS NAIVE - KMFDM TIME FOR CHANGE - Motley Crue AMERICAN - Lana Del Rey WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD - Louis Armstrong

  We go through times in our life where everything can be very chaotic. Sometimes we find ourselves getting addicted to that chaos and then you’re forced to sit quietly and think about the impact you’ve had on people.   For me I had to think about everything and think about the true impact I had of people as I was growing up in this world, I think people get close to me always end up getting hurt because I was holding too much baggage. I had such bad self-esteem, and I was carrying so much anger. so much hurt growing up when I was rejected constantly.   (read more)  

I take about how unauthenticity can lead to so many problems.  It can make you question yourself, if you're doing everything right, am I here to do what I am supposed to do, why is this happening to me?  Owning yourself and being who you are is just one of the things you can do to become stronger, wiser, and happier.   MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE PRESSURE - Elyxr CRAZY - Mushroomhead WELCOME HOME (SANITARIUM) - Iron Horse EVERYDAY - Eric Prydz HAPPINESS IN SLAVERY - Nine Inch Nails ALIVE - Empire of the Sun

  When I was in Arizona at the Civana resort, which is one of the best I have ever been to, if you haven't read my earlier post, we did something pretty cool. At 8am, we had an intention ceremony and 6pm or so, we did a gratitude ceremony. These were wonderful ideas and even though my day didn't end at that time, it was a good way to recap what happened that day. So since then, I have been trying hard to keep up with these two items and writing them in my journal. (read more)

We give people all of us, especially when we believe we are close with them.  Whether it's someone you're interested in, a "good" friend, a prospective romantic relationship, or family member; there are times we feel like they aren't with us.  They don't appreciate us, and it is so hard to stop ourselves from chasing people down and convincing them we care about them.  So I just talk about learning how to let go of them and hold onto you with lots of grace and self love. MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE ADDICTED TO YOU - Avicii I'M NOT IN LOVE - 10cc THE PAIN INSIDE OF ME - Holy Soldier BOUND - Bright Lights THE END OF THE HEARTACHE - Killswitch Engage WALK AWAY - Drama LOVE THE ONE YOU'RE WITH - Stephen Stills

 Sometimes we fall down, and we then get back up.  This could mean mental illness, addiction, eating disorders, etc.  The thing is we have the chance to make a great comeback and be victorious.  I talk about my own slip this past week and I get into many of these different items.  It isn't about the loss.  It is how you respond. MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE SOMETIMES THINGS GET WHATEVER - Deadmau5 END OF THE WORLD - Excision/Dion Timmer NEVER GO BACK - Fleetwood mac WHAT ELSE IS THERE - Royksopp STAY - Shakespeare Sister THE DOG DAYS ARE OVER - Florence + The Machine