LONELY ONE

 Sometimes we feel isolated. We feel like people don't want us. We feel like people think we're too much so they avoid us. It's such a shitty place to be, but is there a way out? (read more)

EPISODE CXIII: NEGATIVE POSITIVITY

 This could me my edgiest episode to date.  Just trying to make someone feel better because it makes you uncomfortable is the title track of this jam.  I also discuss how therapists. doctors, and psychiatrists use toxic positivity to make you feel better, and then those who are "Christians" who talk to you about God and religion being the only way out, when they themselves don't have clean bedsheets.  You find positivity in yourself and ask if you need help and those will hopefully give you what you need  

MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE

EVERYTHING'S FINE - Jean Grae X Quelle Chris
LONELY DAY - System of A Down
FAKE HEALER - Metal Church
BLOODMONEY - Poppy
GOD FEARING MAN - Imminence
SMILE LIKE YOU MEAN IT - The Killers
HELL YOU CALL A DREAM - The Warning
LYING FROM YOU
Linkin Park
BREAK MY STRIDE- Matthew Wilder

DECLARATION OF DEPLETION

So I have been at this for two years. Telling people to keep going. Telling people to not let life get them down. Telling people to believe. I sometimes look at myself and I have to tell myself the same bullshit. I have to give myself the middle finger. I am not happy at all. (read more)
 

EPISODE CXII: THE ANATOMY OF A VENDETTA

 We all experience very fierce fights with family members, loved ones, friends, etc.  The trick is to understand that a disagreement should be just that,  There should be respect and love in every situation but tensions can boil and make it very hard to see it that way and make it personal.  I look at my own experiences in this piece, and talk about what I think will work as I am trying to apply it now.  I hope you have lots of love in your life, but remember it starts with you.

 MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE

COME UNDONE - Duran Duran
A TALE THAT WASN'T RIGHT - Helloween
THREE BLIND MICE - Skinny Puppy
UNFINISHED SYMPATHY - Massive Attack
LOOK ON DOWN FROM THE BRIDGE - Mazzy Star
MAKE IT HAPPEN - Rufus Du Sol
FLY HIGH - Soulfly

WHEN IT AWAKENS

 Last week I obviously didn't post for the fact I was dealing with a family emergency. Everything seems to be OK now, but it has rattled me in some ways. Quite frankly, I have been not doing so well. I believe it's a single trigger that has opened up other triggers. (read more)

EPISODE CXI: THE WANTING AND THE PATIENCE

 

We want things, yes.  Nothing wrong with that.  However when we start putting ourselves in bad positions where we hurt others and ourselves to get them, it becomes a big problem.  Sometimes its best to just wait for somethings.  We don't want to do nothing.  However the universe may let us know through some signs that its not the right time.  We have to listen.  The reward could be much more fulfilling if we do.

MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE

PATIENCE - Guns N Roses
I WANT IT ALL - Cracker
I WANT IT ALL - Metro Boomin
MONEY POWER GLORY - Lana Del Rey
INTO THE LIGHT - Nero
THE WAITING - Tom Petty
ONLY TIME - Enya

Movie clip - FIght Club

SPECIAL NOTE

 There was no Gratitude Chronicles this week due to a family emergency.  We will be back on Wednesday.  In the meantime new episode drops tomorrow.

Enjoy 

M

EPISODE CX: THE ATTACK FROM WITHIN

 There is nothing worse than fighting an invisible enemy.  Especially when it's yourself.  I have suffered from panic attacks for a long time and have learn slowly but surely how to recover from them.  Mandy Flannery, owner of the Teal Yogi talks about the road that led her to confront these wretched tricks our brains play on us, and how her yoga programs help people get through them.

MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE

CRAWLING - Linkin Park
NOTHINGS REAL - Shura
WAITING FOR THE MIRACLE - Leonard Cohen
TRYING TO GET THAT FEELING AGAIN - The Carpenters
TEAL - Joan Shelley
DON'T YOU WORRY CHILD - Swedish House Mafia