THE STATES OF AMERICA

 

When I first wrote this, I spoke about many of the events that happened in some detail and how I personally felt about them. For some reason it wouldn't let me post. I think the universe wanted me to think about this again and come back. So that is what I am doing, hence why I'm a day late and not a dollar short.(read more)

EPISODE CXV: THE FALL AND THE RISE

 This last month has been really tough for me, and I have had many mental health moments.  Depressing moments, panic attacks, and I crashed out yesterday.  I talk about how that felt and what I do to move forward and not be to hard on myself for it.

MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE

TOY SOLDIERS - Martika
THE FALL - Ministry
9TH SYMPHONY - Beethoven
TEMPTATION - VAST
SSC STAND OR FALL - Anthrax
I AIN'T GOING OUT LIKE THAT - Cypress Hill
HOLD ON - Yngwie Malmsteen
BEGIN AGAIN - Knife Party

EPISODE CXIV: THE LABOR OF LIFE

 Happy Labor Day.  Imagine a holiday to celebrate working.  Who comes up with this things?  Maybe we should evaluate our happiness and what we are doing with ourselves.  We want happiness love and acceptance.  How can we do these things?  We can start with ourselves and begin on this Labor Day

MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE

A JOB AINT NOTHING BUT WORK - Big Daddy Kane
LIFE IS KILLING ME - Type O Negative
MANY RIVERS TO CROSS - CDM
EVERYONE HURTS - R.E.M.
IT COULD BE SWEET - Portishead
TANGERINE SKY _ Kottonmouth Kings
THE BIGGER THEY COME - House of Lords

LONELY ONE

 Sometimes we feel isolated. We feel like people don't want us. We feel like people think we're too much so they avoid us. It's such a shitty place to be, but is there a way out? (read more)

EPISODE CXIII: NEGATIVE POSITIVITY

 This could me my edgiest episode to date.  Just trying to make someone feel better because it makes you uncomfortable is the title track of this jam.  I also discuss how therapists. doctors, and psychiatrists use toxic positivity to make you feel better, and then those who are "Christians" who talk to you about God and religion being the only way out, when they themselves don't have clean bedsheets.  You find positivity in yourself and ask if you need help and those will hopefully give you what you need  

MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE

EVERYTHING'S FINE - Jean Grae X Quelle Chris
LONELY DAY - System of A Down
FAKE HEALER - Metal Church
BLOODMONEY - Poppy
GOD FEARING MAN - Imminence
SMILE LIKE YOU MEAN IT - The Killers
HELL YOU CALL A DREAM - The Warning
LYING FROM YOU
Linkin Park
BREAK MY STRIDE- Matthew Wilder

DECLARATION OF DEPLETION

So I have been at this for two years. Telling people to keep going. Telling people to not let life get them down. Telling people to believe. I sometimes look at myself and I have to tell myself the same bullshit. I have to give myself the middle finger. I am not happy at all. (read more)
 

EPISODE CXII: THE ANATOMY OF A VENDETTA

 We all experience very fierce fights with family members, loved ones, friends, etc.  The trick is to understand that a disagreement should be just that,  There should be respect and love in every situation but tensions can boil and make it very hard to see it that way and make it personal.  I look at my own experiences in this piece, and talk about what I think will work as I am trying to apply it now.  I hope you have lots of love in your life, but remember it starts with you.

 MUSIC FROM THIS EPISODE

COME UNDONE - Duran Duran
A TALE THAT WASN'T RIGHT - Helloween
THREE BLIND MICE - Skinny Puppy
UNFINISHED SYMPATHY - Massive Attack
LOOK ON DOWN FROM THE BRIDGE - Mazzy Star
MAKE IT HAPPEN - Rufus Du Sol
FLY HIGH - Soulfly